I’m wondering about something difficult to pin down. I find that I get a substantially stabilising effect from self awareness - particularly around life direction and how clearly I can see the steps required to reach my goals.
Has anyone created or come across a quick and dirty existential ranking matrix? Something which could reveal a lower connection to time for example?
My theory is I get enormous mood crashes depending on the level of actionable self awareness I have. (In other words that my mood swings are dependent upon controllable factors dependant upon self awareness). Which presents a problem, how do I track for absense of self awareness?
I suppose I could assign value ranking to the habits I track, and weight them by long term connection, and judge by the results of each week how well attached I am to my life => high score, versus disconnected and avoidant (meaning I didn’t do the important things) => low score.
Maybe I could rank my moods per day, over my behaviours per day, and compare and contrast them.
I know I can track even when in the worst headspace so I’m really curious what kind of data might yield something helpful.
I feel like I’m trying to invent the wheel and I suspect there must be someone who’s already done it lol. Any input would be really appreciated!